Thankless and Resentful

I was reading an article today about being burnt out and how it was a form of resentment.  And after reading it, I had to agree.

My burnt out state at my current company is a form of resentment.  In the way that I resent how I've been treated in the almost 9 years I've been here.

Twice now at this company, I've been relegated to Desktop Support (my title and main job is Network Admin), which in most companies, is a thankless job.  Thankless, because even though there are a good number of people that say "thank you" when you make their computer work again, it's the upper brass that couldn't give two shits about that reliable employee.

The first time, I quit, went to another company for 3 months and then got wooed back into the Borg.  Two years ago, they laid off our much appreciated by many desktop guy and it's been going downhill ever since.  The last few months have been particularly cruel and undeserving, which lead me to decide to finally set a date to move on and stop the employment abuse.

Carrying this level of resentment has been an albatross and one that I will be happy to get rid of.

Which will also turn that thankless position in for one that is once again appreciated.

Untouchable

Part of me wants to be an executive. The part that can make mistakes and still keep your job or at least land on your feet with a nice exit package.

You are able to make decisions that cost the company money, putting that spin on it that makes it look like you are doing something positive.  For example, let's say you had your hand in migrating from one system to another.  The newer system is highly inferior than the one that's already in place.  Two years into the migration, things are not going so well.  A few million has been spent on software, hardware and consulting fees to the person that sold the idea as "awesome".  Now, the whole company is "excited" about the transition from this newer system back to the system that was already in place and it's billed as a "success" that we are making progress.  That is, if you deem progress as costing a few million, a couple of years of wasted time and endless amounts of extra hours that everyone except aforementioned higher up and his consultant have put in to make things right.

Meanwhile, those of us on the lower end of the organization chart, forget one minor configuration when rebuilding a computer - one that takes a few minutes to correct - and are chastised because of it.

Something seems a bit off balance here.  Way off balance.

I'll continue to pursue my efforts to be the other part.