Later this afternoon, I posted a response to an article I read on the web. I'm not sure what my point was, but what came out wasn't exactly countering any point in the article. Someone I respect read my response and called me out on the point I made, which was a correction.
For some reason, I became more defensive than I should have. After all, I really should have read more of my response before posting it. In hindsight (what a common phrase that gets used a lot today), I see where I missed the point and now know what I should have wrote. A bit too late for that, buddy.
Regardless, what came out of this is the fact that person that was nicely trying to point out something to me came across as a heavy dose of criticism.
Back in the day, I used to be able to take a lot. I mean, hell... I went through a divorce where regular trashing of me and what I stood for was a regular expectation. I've worked at companies where dealing with the shit that came down on a daily basis was something I could easily handle. I've been through a lot and have handled it. This part of me now... who is this person? Have I just been dealt with so much lately that this was the final bit of criticism that I could handle before losing it? I certainly hope not.
I think most of this comes from the fact that I let way too much get in the way of doing what I want to do. I don't have that control of life like I feel I should. It's that point of wanting something that I feel I should have.
It's all a process of living life and as I normally do, I tackle the self-analysis side of a situation like this and make improvements where needed. It's the one part that does take that criticism and turn it into a positive.
