Holiday Hum Drum

Since last Christmas, I've really been so-so about the whole holiday season.  Not Scrooge like, but more like not really being happy in general.

There are a lot a issues going on in my head, one of which is the dark cloud of unknown that comes between some people in my life.  I try to please others before attending to my own desires and needs.  Granted, I do a lot and have support from others to do it, without guilt or the permission asking steps that normally need to be taken.

But since the events that took place at the end of October 2010, I've been blah about the holiday season.  I'm hoping that the marathon conversation I had the other night with my wife will help to some degree.  Guess we'l see what Santa brings on Christmas Day.